Content/tw: death mention, suicidal ideation, money
Carrie would have been 61 today.
I’m a wreck.
There’s a lot going on in my personal life, including being out of work, bills piling up (here’s my YouCaring if you can help https://www.youcaring.com/maralee-938599), and shit happening between me and my abuser. I was going to use today’s entry to be a list of self-care tips or something. But I’ve got nothing.
All I can think about is that I want to die so I won’t have financial stress and I will be away from my abuser and maybe I can be with Carrie.
She would say “take your broken heart and make it into art”.
I’m trying, Carrie. I’m trying.
